Here is the 7th letter in my 30-letter challenge. This one is supposed to be to an ex-boyfriend or ex-crush.  Kind of an interesting letter.  This is one of those letters that you are supposed to write and then burn or shred without ever sending. 

Dear Former Crush,

You know who you are but most people reading this might assume I’m talking about someone else.  Well, I’m writing to you.

We never dated but I liked you for over a year.  You liked me too.  In a lot of ways, I owe you a thank you.  I met you when I was going through a rough patch in my life.  Through our friendship, parts of me could be healed. But, I never could figure out why you refused to date me even though you liked me.  Well, I finally know now.  I was waiting for my husband to come.  Had I been dating you, I would not have been free to date my husband when I first met him. 

It hurt my feelings that you couldn’t take the risk by dating me.  But the pain you caused me only made me appreciate my husband more. The pain is long since gone and I have no embittered feelings toward you.  I have a genuine gratitude to you. 

Everything happens for a reason.  You were there as a friend for me for so long.  I enjoyed our friendship. I learned a lot and grew as a person. 

You have a girlfriend now and I’m happy that you found someone that you can commit to. 

In a bizarre way, I needed to know you before I could meet my husband.  I hope that you have found that same happiness with your girlfriend. 

Here is the sixth letter in my 30-day letter challenge. 

Dear Sir,
I saw you when we went out to eat dinner at the Warsaw Inn.  We were sitting at a table for four near the middle.  You were sitting alone by the wall.  You had a glass of red wine pour neatly to the right of your plate.  I don’t know why I remember the part about the red wine.  I guess it made me think that you were enjoying your dinner.  You don’t have red wine if you plan on scarfing down your meal. 

But the thing I remember most about you was not your wine.  No, it was your sadness that I remember most.  There was such genuine sorrow written on the wrinkles of your face.  We thought maybe you used to come here regularly with your wife, that maybe the Warsaw Inn was “your spot” with her.  We thought maybe that she died and you continue to frequent your favorite spots to keep your wife’s spirit alive. 

Of course, I don’t know if you were married, or ever were for that matter.  All I know is that the sadness was there.  I hope that your sadness will fade.  I hope that you can be happy again.

I’ll probably never see you again but in the brief time that I saw you eating dinner with your red wine, you taught me a lesson.  Cherish the time you’ve got.  Cherish your loved ones.  Love your spouse.  Never take anyone for granted.  I hope you find peace from whatever was troubling you.

May God bless you and keep you.

Here is the fifth letter in the 30-day letter challenge. This one is supposed to be to “my dreams.”  How do you write a letter to your dreams?  Does it mean dreams as in aspirations or dreams as in nightly REM cycle dreams?  I don’t know.  Well, I’ll guess I start by saying that I have very unusual yet vivid REM-type dreams.  I try to analyze them.  In the summer after seventh grade, I had intense dreams all summer long. I dub it “the summer of the dreams.”  Here are a few examples.
<>1.2.In 4th grade, I had a dream that St. Nicholas saved my life.  He told me to wake up so I didn’t die.  So, I woke up.  One of my loose teeth had fallen out in the night and was loose in my mouth.  Later, that day, I realized it was the feast of St. Nicholas.  So… my theory?  I had a dream that told me to wake up so I didn’t choke on my tooth??? Sounds crazy. Maybe it is. But that’s how it happened so judge the facts for yourself.

Anyway, I’ll start my letter.  I’ll go with the aspiration type dreams.

Dear Dreams,

I’ve always been a dreamer.  For as long as I can remember. Daydreamer fits me perfectly.  I think one of the reasons why I’m never bored is that I’m such a good day dreamer. 

You’ve always given me great aspirations to work towards so thanks! Sometimes I think my dreams are too unattainable, but the challenge is kind of fun…. Sometimes its not fun, but for the most part it is. 

One of my favorite poems has to do with dreams so I’ll share:

what if you slept?
and what if
in your sleep you dreamed?
and what if
in your dream you went to heaven
and there plucked a strange and beautiful flower?
and what if when you woke up
you had that flower in your hand?
ah, what then?

-coleridge


Love,
The Dreamer

Here is the fourth letter in the 30-day letter challenge. This one is dedicated to my sibling.

Dear Sisterino,
When we were little, we would fight everyday. Usually over the “rules” of some game we invented.  Yet, even though we would fight, we were still best friends at the end of the day.  After all, in a world of grown-ups, we were the only ones who could still fit under the dining room table.  But, one day at Grandma’s we had an especially big fight.  Probably over the rules of some game.  I was five and said the worst thing I ever said to you.  I said, “I wish we weren’t sisters.”  Looking back, it was the worst thing I ever said…. I regret that I said it.

My life would be so boring (but probably less mischievous… well…. maybe not haha) without you!  I’m sorry I said those words so long ago, but the truth is that I’m so glad you’re my sister!

Whenever we hang out and have “brother day” I always have so much fun.  You get me.  Our twin-ness is just awesome… remember the twin letter from Vienna? Haha.  We’re so different and so exactly the same.  It’s pretty much awesome. 

Right now, you’re making French press coffee. I’m laughing at you because you’re using the nasty sponge to wipe your shirt….you probably made it more germy than it was worth.  See, it’s things like that that make me laugh. 

I like so many things about the “real” you…. You’re just as crazy as me.  You like dancing to “It Makes Me Ill.”  You like crazy harebrained ideas. 

Basically, I know the real you.  And I love the real you. 

.Here is another letter in the 30-day letter challenge. This one is to my parents.

I don’t know where to begin so I’m just starting here: I’d be on the street if it wasn’t for you.  You both are so generous.  You have given me so much… I don’t mean material things either.  Through your generosity, you’ve given me lessons.  How to be.  How to love.  How to be selfless.  How to do the right thing, even when it hurts.

Mama, you’ve taught me that a mother eats the burnt half of the bagel and shares the good half with her daughter.  You’ve taught me that a mother selflessly gives her time and efforts for others.  I learned that a mother better have her act together and know where everything is.  You’ve walked countless miles holding my stuff.  It’s my turn now to cart stuff around the city, the zoo, the museum, Europe.  I know how to be a woman because of you. I hope that one day I can be just as good a mother as you.

Daddy, you’ve taught me to be proud of your roots.  You taught that you stand behind family no matter what.  You’ve taught me that it’s okay to take “short cuts” if it means you really get to take the long, scenic root.  You showed me that it’s okay to leave the bed unmade for the day… as long as you make it sometimes.  I double and triple check things because of you – and it’s saved me many, many times!!

I guess what I’m saying is that I’m proud to be your daughter.  I am who I am because of you. 

Thank you for everything you do.  You’ve given me so much, but again, the lessons you’ve taught are priceless. 

I love you.

30 Day Letter Challenge:

To My Best Friend,
 I heard a quote once that "A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have." How true that is!  Hard to find?  Yep, you were hard to find.  It took me twenty years and a trip to Austria to find you.  Lucky to have?  Beyond belief! You've saved my life in countless ways - literally and metaphorically.  You've saved me numerous times on a mountain, dug me out of snow-filled hole when my foot got stuck, but you've always saved me metaphorically.  You've comforted me, wiped away my tears.  You've brought more smiles to my lips than anyone. You've brought more peace to mind than anyone else could.  You've guided me, taught me valuable lessons, and shown me true love. You've allowed me to be who I really am.  You brought the "real me" back to life.

You are simply amazing.  Without you, my path would surely be lost. Without you, I would not be this person who I am today.

I owe you gratitude.  I am indebted to you for your friendship.  You have always been generous and giving.  The first time we met, you were helping others.  The first time we traveled about Munich together, you bought me a coffee simply "just because."

The best way to thank you is to show you the kindness and love and friendship that you have shown me.  I am always here for you. 

Thank you, my friend.