Letter #11: To Someone Who Has Died

Dear Grandma & Mum,

You were both such a huge part of my childhood, which helped shape me into who I am today.  Even after you both died, you still helped to shape and guide me.  I don’t know how to explain it…. But Mum, after you left, I would think “Would Mum like this type of music? What would Mum think if she saw me doing this?”  So, in that way, thank you for being such important influences in my life.  I wish I could bring Dana over to your houses for dinners.  Dinner at your houses were both so different, but that odd mixture is who I am.

I hope you are up in Heaven, finally at true peace, watching over all of us.

I love you both. 

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Dear Bennett,

I never saw your first smile or heard you take your first breath, but I held you inside of me. I never got to see your face with ice cream dripping down your chin, but I fed you life from inside.

I know you're in Heaven watching down on us. But sometimes my mind gets a little trippy when I think about that if you were here, your little brother wouldn't be. Did you have to go to make way for him? What does that say about your life ... or his?

We love you so much, my sweet baby. And one day in Heaven, I'll receive the gift of seeing your beautiful face.

Love,
Your Mama